Two weeks ago, I started applying as an intern. I feel discouraged for not receiving phone calls from the two accounting firms where I was applying for. It’s a bit sad to know that some of my batchmates are already working while I’m still searching…. And waiting. I ask myself, “Do I really deserve to wait?” or “Is there something that is worth waiting for? ” Maybe I will just be waiting in vain. Maybe I’m just not good enough. That’s why I tried looking for another company.
Unexpectedly, my accounting teacher made a Facebook post about a firm looking for interns. By the way, this firm is one of the biggest firms internationally but not that famous in the Philippines. I immediately send my resume and grades. Luckily, as I am eating in the school canteen last Monday, I was called for an interview. I need to be there quickly. I told myself, “This is it. ” I actually don’t feel nervous on that more than an hour interview though. I just thought that if this is for me, then it will be. I took their examination as well. After three days, I got hired. Amazing! There will always be a blessing in disguise. I love the workplace and the staffs are good as well.
BUT THAT IS NOT THE END OF MY STORY. Last morning, I received a call from the company I visited last week. I passed their examination and they want me to start next week. However, I already have a company to work with. After that, I realize that there is a reason for everything. Maybe I feel so sad last week because I thought that I was not good enough. What if they hired me beforehand? Maybe I will not be able to have the chance to work in one of my dream companies. Maybe I will not be happy to know that we are only two students from my school who made it. And yes, all those maybe’s will not happen because this is all God’s plans. He has better plans for me, really. I feel so blessed.
Hours after, I receive a text message from the first company I went, I am also qualified to be one of their interns. What happened is really on a perfect time. The first two companies made a delay on hiring me because I was destined for somewhere else.
So if you are sad that something you are wishing for did not happen, always remember that God has better plans for you. You just have to wait for the perfect timing. 😊
(Made a sonnet out from a picture during our Lit1 class.)
Here I am alone and still waiting
Wishing you to come back and save
Me from this trap. Now I’m tired of crying,
I can’t forget you for I ain’t that brave
The sea is calm right here
Its alluring ripples amazed me still
Oh my love, are you starring right there?
My heart is too empty that you need to fill
How I wish your love is like a ship
Even if you leave and went to another place,
You’ll still be back to fix this relationship
And save me with your sweet embrace
Now tell me, is it my fault to love you?
When in fact you are the one who is untrue
Waning: The story is difficult to understand and yeah, f*ck grammar.
There was a guy who is holding a knife with him. He brings it everyday. He doesn’t have friends. He is afraid to have one because he might hurt every person that he meets. One day, the guy who always holding a knife met the girl who changed his life. He knew he was happy. He loves the girl so much and enjoy every moment with her. But one day, the guy was scared. He was scared that he might hurt his lover. He was scared that he might hurt her everyday. He was scared that the knife he was holding might kill the girl he loves. And so he push the girl away. He sees to it that she will never come back. Because that’s the only thing he knew- that he is afraid to hurt her everyday.
(Dawn, while watching the moon in a beach in Camotes Island.)
I’m lying in the sand in a cloudy night
Thinking about the decision that I’ll make
The weather seems cold but the moon is bright
And the scenario keeps my eyes awake
Oh, full moon! How beautiful you are.
You look so sweet, lovable and kind
But you are lonely, and I can’t see a single star
Like me who is thinking about my lover that I left behind
I’m leaving and lost myself in an island
Trying to fix things to become a better
girl for him. Now I miss him and want to hold his hand
Coz I love him and it’s all that matter
I need to know what’s within me
And be the better girl that he wants me to be 🙂
You have witnessed me before.
You already know how I feel even before I talk .
You are the person who makes me believe that there’s forever.
And the same person who teaches me that there isn’t.
You are my best enemy.
We argue all the time.
And our debates turned into real fight.
We have our differences.
I’m childish, you’re so serious.
I’m expressive, you’re mysterious.
We have our own principles.
The reason why we never click sometimes.
But what I love about us is that we are weird.
We have our own world.
Our own safe haven.
You have been my bestfriend.
You have been my lover.
And I don’t know which of the two is the best.
People think we’re crazy.
They are right.
We have found love rushingly.
In fact, the winds of destiny came unexpectedly.
The world is against us.
The society too.
But we just don’t care.
We never listen to them.
Because we’re too young back then.
You are my favorite mistake.
Because for me, you are the one.
The only thing in life that I got right.
We have been forced apart a lot of times.
And I find myself coming back to you all the time.
Even after all these years,
I am still comfortable with you.
Because with you, I’m confident.
With you, I’m different.
With you, I am being myself.
And being with you feels like home.
I always thought time will heal the pain.
I always thought I will never feel this again.
The feeling that have been left for so many years.
The feeling I’ve been hiding all these years.
But we grew up.
We have different passion, different lives.
Maybe our souls are connected.
Maybe fate bind us to meet and separate again.
Because that was 5 years and two lifetimes ago.
Because we have come to realize.
That love is not just about the feelings.
Love, in its deeper sense, is a CHOICE.